My "BFF"
First off,
II wish her family love, prayers and support in comfort for them - especially her little man - through this unexpected loss.
Ellie and I grew up together. I think she and I tried to spend every extra moment we could manipulate our parents into - spending time together. Swimming, boys, mall, etc. --- Until one of us could drive (I was the first, so OF COURSE - I HAD to go get Ellie so we could drive to Wendy's all on our own and get a frosty and fresh fries.!... Or could have been Arby's, it was the 90's!)
We had many memories growing up together - ones now I reflect on and use as a point of reference with my own daughters friendships. Could she be as lucky as I was? To find someone who could make you feel it was OK to be you, who loved your family, and I loved hers? I was lucky. I AM LUCKY.
I had not spoke or seen Ellie since we were both off at college... We just drifted, it was ok.... But, Everyday, for years -she was part of my thoughts, in my head... Just as we were together in jr high and high school before. Then FB came along - it made my search easier to find her. We reconnected for a "hot - minute" and for that minute it was as if all that time, children, homes, marriages, adult life, vanished... We still had the pick up and go connection.... She was still my Ellie. Always.
I am so happy I reconnected with her.. She did tell me about Jake and how much she loved him. I was so happy she was able to be a momma. So we shared that in the moment too.
I love her so much. I am so saddened for her family and most especially her little light and llove Jake.
I just can not find the words right now, but she was a sister to me. She was my person growing up.... I hope she watches over us all now. I will miss her more than I could ever express. When I think of my childhood, she was one of the very best parts.
I will love you forever and always.
B F's F.
-Erica
Posted by Erica
Friday July 24, 2015 at 3:59 am